Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Doctors Office

Took the whole day off of work… and then spent the whole day in the Dr. office. Nobody is a sick, just yearly check up time. Froggy and Miss Bee both in one day complete with weighing in, height, blood presser, and eye tests…

NOW you try and give an eye test to a three year old, they have the little pictures of an umbrella, an apple, and a house, poor Ms Bee she got a huge case of the shyness and couldn’t come up with any of the names. Of course our ABC book at home is A to Z by Sandra Boynton and I believe for U they have ukulele or something like that for ‘U’ not an umbrella so she was a little confused. I bet if they had pictures of Disney Princesses up on the wall she would have had no problems what so ever identifying the images.

Now Miss Bee had fun she was given a book and talked with the Dr who informed me that she is doing great even if she is a little of the small side of things, she is still growing and she is smart as a whip.

Froggy was very happy to find out that he didn’t have to have any shots and that he didn’t have to undress for the Dr. (he hates that part the most) and he doesn’t have to go to the eye Dr. because he has good vision. He also found out how to deal with the acne that has started…

They ask all the same questions do you have any concerns? Of course I have concerns… am I giving them enough attention? Are they well adjusted kids? Do I need to worry about the sullen teenager act? And how soon will it go away? Good grief am I a good enough parent? Am I making the right choices for my kids? DO I have any concerns? I smile and shake my head and say no not really…

Monday, October 10, 2005

Love School

So Sunni’s name has been changed to Sparkles… there is a reason it all has to do with her English teacher and the first essay she had the kids write but enough said that Sunni is now Sparkles.

School has started with a bang… what with school, soccer, color guard and all of the other varies ‘Back-to-school’ nights, Student conferences and Booster meetings, I don’t seem to have a free moment. I can’t wait for it to start to calm down a little, get into the groove as it were. We generally hit a stride just about Nov. things hit a rhythm and we are able to do other things also. October tends to be one of the busiest months of the year, some people have other months we have Dec. I have no less than 10 birthdays one of them being mine… Plus the last few years it seems that we keep having a wedding to go to… Soccer games every weekend, and of course Halloween. Which in my household is a very important event.

Well I am lucky that Ms Bee would like to be a princess this year for Halloween, last year she was Boo (from Monsters Ink) this year she has chosen Belle, we are a very Disney family. Sparkles is thinking about being Bat Girl … if she can borrow leather pants from a friend of ours. Of course the boy child (13) has taken the view that Halloween is a day to pass like every other day. No need to dress up or anything he is perfectly happy to stay at home and hand out candy. AHHH teenage boys, UGH!! I thought the girls were moody!!


I always look forward to this time of year, the weather changing and so much going on but at the same time I dread this time of year, the weather changing and SO much going on.

Monday, June 27, 2005

Stress Stress and more Stress

So Summer has arrived and things around the house tend to get a little more free flowing. Of course my job is in HIGH stress mode. They are starting a new dept (of which I am part of) and out of 11 people four of us have been doing the job for the last six months and the rest are BRAND NEW. So it is up to us the four more expericnce to train the others. I want to change my name. I thought a two year old was bad but now I have two (sometimes three) people, calling my name and asking for help. Is not that I mind giving the help or answering the questions but its hard to get my own job done, not to mention I am being trained to do a new part of the job.... So Stress has become my middle name. And to top it off things aren't rolling along at home the way that I would like them to, so that is adding to the stress. I need a few days off and away from everyone. But that isn't going to happen any time soon. I just want to complain a little so here it is! Damn its not fair that I have to be the one to fix dinner after a long day at work, do the laundry, and the shopping. ::: stamping my foot::: But of course when I bring it up the DH and he just says that the kids can fend for themselves and it really doesn't matter that they dont get what I call a proper dinner. They will survive on cereal for dinner... he is right that once in a while its perfectly okay to have "snack" for dinner and not a real dinner but not on a regular basis. So if I want dinner then I have to cook it myself. It really doesn't seem fair but oh well, I am trying to find things that dont add more stress to my life and in some way may reduce the stress and I am still looking. I think I am losing it I can't remember what things I have done and what things I haven't done. I know this will all get better people at work are getting trained more and more each day. And home will get better also. Its just right now I need a sanity break...

Monday, May 16, 2005

Princess, Princess, Princess

So my Goddaughter turned 6… let that sink in a little. Pause. All right it’s sunk. I can’t believe it she is six! And a wonderful little girl also she is smart and polite and very cute! Did I say talented? Well she is that also. But she can’t be six. She can’t be going into 1st grade ugh! Wasn’t just the other day I was cutting her umbilical cord just moments after she was born? She still doesn’t believe me when I tell her I helped make her belly button! I also was the one to feed her strawberries for the first time, I still supply her berry habit. I cried just last year watching her dance at her first dance recital (she was a very cute bumblebee). We have danced to Phil Collins “You’ll be in my heart” from Tarzan right after she was born, she fell asleep while Mom was resting or showering or something. I have taken her on rides at Disneyland (she had to ride with Auntie). She is the daughter of my best friend/chosen sister. SHE CAN’T BE SIX.

I was video taping parts of her “Princess Party” her mom had arranged a real live princess to show up (much less scary than a clown). She was entranced with the princess and with all of her school friends! She even had time for her little cousin; she made sure that Miss Bee wasn’t left out of the circle. Watching her sit on the couch and play the games that the princess was leading them in was amazing to me, all I could see was her taking her first steps, the look on her face when she realized that I wasn’t just hers that I had two other kids that laid claim to me and my lap, watching her hold Miss Bee for the first time, or the feel of her little arms around me when she gives me hugs. I can’t believe its been six years since she was screaming at all of the nurses making her voice heard that early May morning.

The funny part about this little rant is I do this with all of them all of the kids close to my heart. My own kids, my godchildren, my friend’s kids, my nephews, and my cousins all of them, I come from a large Irish family! Need I say more; there is always a new baby around, there is always a birthday or something. I understand the circle of life, (I have watch Lion King) but why is it I am so surprised when they gain another birthday? Or hit another ‘Life’ event? Okay she is allowed to grow up, breathe, another in through the nose and out through the mouth. I understand what my Grandmother used to say “cherish every time you see them, hold close every moment, and always remember BUT allow them to grow, learn and make mistakes above all LOVE them” My Grandmother was very wise! No wonder she cried when I did something learn to drive, graduate for school, get married, have kids, get a divorce and get married again. She always had a little smile on her face when one of us kids would reach a goal! I guess I never verbalized just how hard it is to watch them grow up, I have moaned and groaned that Frogs is no longer a toddler, or that Sunni isn’t in elementary school, that Miss Bee has outgrown a favorite outfit. But its just hard to watch them make the mistakes and the learn from them on their own. Its wonderful to watch them succeed: a first dance recital, a perfect color guard performance, a great soccer goal save, the first time they can work the swing all by themselves or have the courage to go down the slide without help and no one to catch them at the bottom. Watching your kids (and that includes the ones you claim and didn’t have to give birth to) fail and succeed is the hardest thing to do and the best thing to do! I wouldn’t trade it for anything else in the world.


~“Cherish every time you see them, hold close every moment, and always remember BUT allow them to grow, learn and make mistakes above all LOVE them”~ Tutu

Thursday, May 05, 2005

Driving and all it magic

So just yesterday Sunni tells me in a very enthused voice “Hey Mom I am almost done with my drivers training! I only have one more section left to do!” When she is done with that, she can go down and take the test to get her permit! And be allowed behind the wheel of a car, with adults mind you but still behind the wheel of a car! I don’t know if I am ready for this! I know her Aunties and Uncles are not ready for this most of them still see her sucking her thumb and holding onto her silky (her own name for her security blanket). And she is about three, pushing four when she finally got rid of her silky. She can’t be ready to drive a car! Not yet! And yet on the other hand she gets her license and I don’t have to leave work early and drive her to the college for a make up exam and then to a audition and not get home until 10:30 at night after a long day at work. Or I don’t have to worry about how she and her brother are going to get home from school everyday or to color guard or to soccer practices throughout the year, but I do have to worry about car accidents and insurance and another car. So do the pros out weight the cons.
Cons
Extra insurance
Car accidents
Extra gas (and right now its at an all time high of $2.52 a gallon)

Pros
No more car-pooling for: School, Soccer or Color Guard
Being able to send her to the store for Milk on a Sunday morning
She can pick up little sis from school/daycare

I am not sure, luckily I have about six months before she can even take her test to get the drivers license and then another few weeks or months before she can really go and drive by herself. Calif. has a Graduated Licensing program… learner, provisional, and full-licensure… So I have time to make sure that she is ready to drive and that I am ready for her to drive!

What a Weekend!

So how do you know you are crazy or at least in over your head? I say it comes when you have one daughter going to the prom and the other having a third birthday party the next day! Oh and throw in a sister-in-law’s baby shower on Saturday just for good measure. Just to complete the insanity you choose (yes I said choose) to get up at 4 in the morning to watch them dance up the sun. I am still shaking my head in wonder… trying to figure out where my brain is and how much do I really think I can slam into a 36 hour period.
So I started my weekend by renting a huge bush mower to cut down the jungle that is our back yard. That took me about three hours all told, between getting the back yard picked up enough to get the mower and renting and mowing… It really went by quickly! Froggy had the honor of raking up the grass leavings as best as he could, Sunni and I both worked in the yard doing little things like pulling weeds. Froggy also mowed the front yard. We (Sunni, Miss Bee and I) went to the baby shower that was probably the most relaxing part of the weekend. We stayed about two hours or so and the rushed home to start getting ready for Prom. While Sunni was getting ready I was finishing up part of the bathroom we had started remodeling it two years ago and because of money issues and manpower issues it is just now getting done! I really wanted a sink in the bathroom! And I got one YEA!!! So Sunni left for the Prom, boy was she dressed wonderfully, I know she is growing up and mostly I am okay with that but she really is a very beautiful person! My sister came over to take pictures and Sunni was properly exasperated with the both of us. We just kept telling her wait until next year when we really will be taking pictures! I also informed her that next year I will be a chaperone for the prom but I wont do it for her Senior year! Man I just can’t believe that she is growing up that she is going to be in her last two years of High school. It will go by fast they always do! Anyway my BIL and I finished the sink (while cooking dinner) and finally got to bed at 10pm… DAY WAS LONG!
The night was even shorter; the alarm went off at 4am… I jumped up (Okay staggered up) got dressed, made tea, woke up Sunni and was picked up by a friend who always goes with us, or should I say drags us along. We managed to get there on time amazingly enough. It was a wonderful site: in the middle of a large field with several Oak trees around speckling the countryside, hills on both horizons. The tall grass had been mowed down into a large circle for dancing and watching, they had placed candles and flowers all along the path and around the circle, the fog also added to the magic of the morning by just circling us not too close but it was like the lights from the candles kept it at bay. The sound of music and bells in the quite morning air didn’t take away from the silence of the morning but added to it. Then as the sun breached the hills in the East the wonderful sound of bagpipes, I know you say “wonderful sound of bagpipes” there is something to be said about bagpipes played well… you certainly understand why the English hated them so much. The sound bouncing off the hills and trees is enough to make you hair stand on end! Lovely! We watched dancing and cheered when the sun peeked its bright globe over the hills. Even managed to dance a little ourselves, a really nice morning. Followed by a trip to a great bakery just out of Sebastopol picking up bread, coffee and breakfast rolls. Then racing home to finish getting ready for the birthday party.
Manage to go shopping, take delivery of a jumpy house and set up for a party in just a few hours. I had help from two really great friends or else it never would have all gotten done! So then the party started and people started to arrive, kids started jumping, parents talking and everyone eating! Miss. Bee was waited on hand and foot! At one point she had both the Grandmas sitting next to her, like she was holding court! She had her ‘happy cake’ and opened all of her LOOT! I know that they say that toddlers are toddlers until they are four but really Miss Bee is becoming her own little person so very quickly its amazing to watch. At one point I looked out over the back yard and was very happy just about everyone that I really cared about was there from family to chosen family! What was amazing to me is that this group of friends or chosen family has grown over the years not really added anyone but they have all had families of their own, and it is so wonderful to see everyone and watch all of the kids grow! Everyone started to leave and we started to clean up… my kids stayed in the jumpy house even as we made dinner. Miss. Bee was in the jumpy house as the guy came to take it away, she told him ‘tank you for brining a jumpy house for my happy day’… and when we had to take it down she gave him just the biggest pouty face, he looked at me with a pained look on his face and told me ‘oh man I should just leave the house with you!’… It was very funny. All in all the weekend was very good, very busy but very good!

Friday, April 29, 2005

Star Wars

The trials of youth
SO… my poor Froggy, my 13 year old boy, was about to blow a casket this morning on the way to school.. We listen to Alice 97.3, the Sarah and No Name show in the morning and this morning they were having a contest… STAR WARS TRIVIA… the person that could answer the most questions would win a portable DVD player and a chance to win tickets at the opening… FROGGY GRABS my cell phone frantically trying to dial the number, it’s busy… Sunni takes the cell phone and re dials.. Busy, she re dials again… busy, she re dials again… still busy… they come back on air and say they have the two contestants that will be trying to answer the questions and win the prizes… Froggy says re dial again if they can't answer maybe the will let me… still busy.

The first question: what does TIE stand for… FROGGY YELLS from the back seat (which is only 12 inches from my ears) Twin Ion Engines… both people on the radio get that right.

The second question: Spell the name of the world that the Wookie comes from? Froggy rattles off the spelling KASHYYYK! The people on the radio both get it wrong! Froggy is correct… he moans and he groans and calls both of them stupid!

The Third question: Who was the only NON-Jedi to use a lightsaber in the original three movies? Again Froggy shouts HAN SOLO on the planet of Hoth! Only one of the guys on the radio got that right… he (Froggy) calls the other guy stupid!

The Fourth question: What parts did Kiera Knightley and Sofia Coppola play in Episode I? Well poor Froggy didn't know who they were at all… and neither did the guys on the radio! (By the way Kiera Knightley played one of Queen Amidala's handmaidens (the one that switches places with her in the battle scene at the end where they think they have QA and they really don't) I am thinking that Sofia Coppola also plays one of the handmaidens also haven't looked that one up. AND just for the record I just found out about Kiera Knightley it was in a bio I was reading.)

So had Froggy been able to get through he would have won!! Poor kid. I did think he was going to die though. And if you weren't keeping score Froggy correctly answered three of the four questions and the guy on the radio that won only answered two correctly.
Just thought I would share.

Friday, April 22, 2005

Banks and Money

Since Miss Bee was born we have had issues staying employed. Both DH, and myself I just thank the powers that be that we weren't out of work at the same time. I would say that about two years ago was the last time that we were able to just spend money... it was at Disneyland the hotel we had reservations at didn't think that we really meant it when we said we needed the room to be wheelchair accessible... so they had no room for us, But we "fixed" the problem by staying at the Disneyland Hotel and it was Okay, not great, but Okay.
That was two years ago a month after that trip I lost my job and it took me eight months to find a Temp job... and then the day that I started my temp job, DH lost his job...
He found a new one a few months later and ever since we have been playing catch up! Well I am happy to say that we did finally catch up (insert happy dance here)
Well then the bank pulled a whammy on us!
They, the wonderful bank, put a hold on my payroll check! Now they have done it in the past and they just randomly do it I have called and moaned and complained, yelled and screamed EVEN stamped my foot (not that it did any good while I was on the phone.) SO since they put a hold on my payroll check we bounced checks... And are now $200 in the hole!!!! Sucks. I could cry! So when I called again this morning to see if they would reverse the bounced check fees they said we should always allow time for the deposit to clear until we try to draw off of the check and that they could and will put holds on checks that they think will bounce to them. It’s their policy... I think I am looking for a new bank... Okay probably not but I do want to sit down and cry for a long time... I guess we weren't as ahead as I thought. So I guess we will really be up to date Next month!
Why is it that Banks and Money hold so much power over you? Its like they have you by the balls and you can't make a move without permission. I am learning how to control the money not let the money control me... That’s not as easy as it sounds.

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Prom and all the trappings

Okay so Sunshine is going to prom... She is only a sophmore but one of her friends is a senior so she has been asked to go with her friend. The girls should have a good time! So we had two weeks to find a dress... THANK GOD for Auties! We went over to raid one of my best friends closets... and it was the first dress that Sunshine but on, she went and looked at it in the mirror and she said "hey Mom we are done!" boy that was eaiser than I thought it would be! And of course we were able to find in the same closet shoes, a jacket and purse. That just leaves jewlery, hair, makeup and nails to take care of, buy/make appts. I told her that it was a good thing that we didn't have to "buy" much for this prom since we know we have two more yet to endure! I can't believe that she is old enough to be going to prom or high school for that matter it really just seems like a few days ago she was dancing to 'Little Mermaid's ~ Under the Sea' song. Oh thats right is was just the other day she was dancing with Ms. Bee... Okay what I mean is when she was Ms. Bee's age. It is sometimes too much to take in, Sunni was competing this weekend for color guard with school and I get misty eyed just watching knowing that she only has two seasons left and she is no longer in High school. We have even gone and had a meeting with her school seeing where she stands for graudation. What she has completeded and what she still needs to do in order to 'stay on target'. (Every time the teacher said that all I could hear was the line from Star Wars "Stay on Target" hehee it really was hard not to laugh.) So for the next two weeks we will be consumed with getting ready for Prom and Ms. Bee's third birthday... I realized a short time ago that Sunni will graduate in June and Ms. Bee will start Kindergarden in Sept of the same year! Wow!

Friday, April 08, 2005

So it starts

Many of my friends have been doing this so I thought I would give it a try not that I think people will really want to hear/read what I am thinking but who knows...

I have always mantained that I am not the writer in the group, I sing, I dance and sew... I don't act or write. I leave that up to the real talent and when surrounded by the group of people I am surrounded by let me tell you just saying that I sing and dance is minor in comparison. My group of extended family consists of probally some of the most talented people around, they are all performers, some are writers, dancers, singers, musicians, and most can improv with the best of them. And we all dress funny!! We volunteer to perform at Renissance and Dickens fairs here in the Bay Area. But I digress. So writing this will be a labor... but I think it will be something that I will learn to like or even love to do and maybe I will let the kids read this so that they will know what is going on... maybe not. I have always wanted to start writing about what they are doing or what they have said maybe this will be easier. I type much better than I write and it looks neater too!

I have three kids: they have several nicknames from differnt sources. The Eldest is a girl, Sunni, I used to call her Sunshine when she was little, it works for here. She will be driving soon, much to my delight and dismay all at the same time. The next child a boy, Froggy, only because he had a passion for frogs as a small child and still enjoys them now. He has reached the age where you just say well he is a teenager and a boy.... "what are you going to to?". Then last but not least is Miss Bee. She will three next month... so if you are counting I have a 15 year old, a 13 year old and an almost 3 year old... yes I am crazy!