Relax

For Christmas this year I received the BEST present that anyone could get… a gift cert for a 1 hour massage… ahh bliss

So why was it that I couldn’t just relax? The massage was great and she was wonderful but for whatever reason my brain just couldn’t shut off… I keep thinking of the things that I have to do making a mental list: 1. Laundry 2. Clean living room 3. Take clothes to the good will. 4. Pay bills. And the list continues. So I would mentally shake myself and try to put myself in a relaxing state…

Think of the ocean sitting there watching the sunset, hearing the waves crash upon the shore… my brain then takes another turn and I start to think about the past and faire and “the great Shinning Ocean!” the fun times that I had the wonderful people that I have met, the people that are no longer with us, the people we just don’t see anymore because life changes. Okay brain still is roaming about… think of something else.

Green trees, forest the sounds of water flowing by in the creek, I am swinging in a hammock and its warm but I am in the shade the wind is blowing softly through the leafs and the evergreens… some how I start thinking about what I need to pick up at the store: 1. Lunch stuff. 2. Salad makings. 3. Cat litter. STOP it!

Meanwhile the massage continues and she is working hard to relive me of my knots in the shoulders that I own… its great but I can’t get my brain to shut down… I try to focus on the lovely music that is playing in the background it’s a wonderful instrumental piece that is slightly Indian in sound. Its nice but it doesn’t quite get me to completely shut down my brain… NOPE that is still working. I have now started to think about what kind of exercise program I want to start, I have lost some weight but now its time to start exercising so that I can lose more and tone what I have… I would like to swim but life being the way it is I don’t know if that will work so my brain starts to work on schedules on how it would work and how do I get the kids were they need to go and pick them up from where they need to be picked up from… or do I just get up early every morning and do some kind of exercise tape. I give up… I give in I start to just breathe and plan and let my brain take me where its going to take me and try to relax through that…

The upshot is I know what chores need to be done at the house, what I need to pick up from the market for this weekend, I think I have a plan on what I can do by way of an exercise program, the menu for next week’s dinners are planned. I have thought through what needs to happen for the next few days: school meetings, work deadlines, field trips, and the children’s schedule as well. So maybe the massage was worth it, maybe I really did relax or at least got some very good planning in I would like to try to stop my brain from working… I guess it means another massage. DARN or I could always try this.