Where to go?

Its odd the last few years have been in a state of flux.

Not knowing what to do, not knowing how to do it, not knowing if what I am doing is the right thing. I need to move forward, to stop just standing still just hoping that no one will notice that I am really just afraid of what comes next. Of the hard choices I have to make since no one else will. About the only things I don't need to 'change' are my job (THANK GOD) and my kids. Everything else is up for grabs.

I have always said I want to finish school. So do I start that now? How do I start that? How do I manage that? I am back to being a single Mom... and in there lies another choice. Honestly I don't like being a single Parent but at the same time I really am not sure I know how to be a parent with anyone else. Even when I have had a partner it was never a full partnership. Then there is money, the kids, school, work, and play. Medical things that I have been putting off.

So do I start with a list of things to do? A game plan? I guess right now it just starts with a list then a game plan. So list, of things that need to be done, that I would like to have done, things that I/we need and things that I/we want. Wow looks like I have work to do.